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The Value of Golden Memories | Frank Beltran | TEDxDonovanCorrectional

Transcriber: Ben Khazaeli
Reviewer: Rhonda Jacobs How many of you really think about memories? What kind of images
make up the majority of yours? Hugging your family members
and telling them you love them, watching sunrises, sunsets, or walking through green forests. Which ones do you prioritize
and reflect on often? Or do you spend the time you have
to create memories staring at all those
little cat videos online? (Laughter) Think of these questions. One of my memories that comes to mind is of a time when I took my daughter
for a spring drive up to Mt. Baldy to see the snow before it all melted. There's a curve in the road
that passes over a stream made by the melting snow
on its way down from the higher elevation. I parked there and walked with my daughter
down to the edge of the stream, which was a torrent,
crashing against the rocks. The sound was almost deafening. There was a small pool
that branched off from it. I stood there, as the sound of the angry water was drown out by the laughter
of my little girl as she played, dipping her hands in the water and as golden sunlight
illuminated specks of dust in the air, like a diadem of stars
revolving around her head. I didn't want to leave from that moment. Time stood still.  And I felt overwhelming joy,
just watching her play, being her father
and sharing that time with her. What a vivid memory it left in my mind. You know, there comes a time
in everyone's life when we reach a point of reflection, consider decisions we've made
and things we failed to do. Some people make a bucket list
in order to encourage themselves to do all kinds of fun and crazy things
while they're still able to, before youth moves on elsewhere. But sometimes when life's consequences
take a tragic turn, our golden memories
can become too painful to reflect on, and we find ourselves trying to
forget them in order to protect ourselves from the searing pain
they leave in our heart. After all, there's no greater sorrow than reflecting back on happy times when you're in misery. To maintain sanity, we may try
to amplify achievements we've reached, desperately focusing on those things
to assure ourselves that life has meaning. How do you compromise
between those two opposites? Which memories would you place
greater importance on? In my case, I'm faced with the prospect
of endless incarceration. On a daily basis, I'm forced
with the task of just finding something to give the day meaning. No. Before my incarceration,
I've come to realize that even then, I had
an empty feeling within me, constantly looking for something
to make me feel important and to make a big imprint on the world. I studied different religions
searching to fill that void, eventually settling
on philosophy to fill my mind. But today, from what I see with the social
climate out there in the world, I see so many people
are going through the same thing I did. And looking back I realized that so many
of the things I used to focus on that squandered so much of my attention,
were just trivial illusions, and a total waste
of that short, precious time I had to make those memories,
and make life worth living. I used to think that one of my greatest
achievements in life was of a time when I was
one of a few people chosen, to give a speech to Muriel Morse, the Chairwoman of the Industrial
Wages Commission. I told her about how hard it was
being a young father, trying to support a family
on minimum wage, which hadn't been raised in many years. Something I said must have made
an impact on her, because my story
literally brought her to tears. After the presentation,
she sought me out in the crowd, and told me that she was
going to raise minimum wage to help people like me. Convincing her to do so
affected untold thousands, and I felt I had made
a major contribution to society. I considered that a pinnacle in my life. Sometime ago I came to the realization
and felt the guilt of having wasted so many years not appreciating
enough of those golden moments. I did not paint enough images into my mind
with those details that make life such a vivid experience. To this day, I desperately
try to go back there. In times when I'm alone, and I see the sunlight
flowing in through my 4-inch window, lighting specks of dust in the air, like so many stars. I try to relive those moments
I wish would last forever. We all have a tendency to forget, that everyone here has purpose. We're all here to make an impression
on someone's life. Our human experience makes it hard for us
to appreciate all those little moments until they're gone. But honestly, its importance
cannot be overstated. That memory with my little girl was decades ago. In the blink of an eye -
(Snaps fingers) decades. Well, how many of us can appreciate
those golden moments now? Marcus Aurelius wrote that - and we've all heard the saying - "Do every act of your life
as it were your last." Maybe Marcus Aurelius
was onto something way back then, in the days before so many digital bits
and bytes steal so much of our attention. Can we heed that advice these days
and put down the laptops and cellphones, and take time to apply
all those little brushstrokes that create the foundation of our lives? Are you paying close attention to all those little details that make each moment
so ripe and colorful? Let's not take those for granted. Appreciate your golden memories
that define purpose and brighten our brief
shining moment in the sun. Thank you. (Applause)